end of this break.

so maybe if many of you know, here where I live... it's winter vacation. really, its very exciting since schools out and everyones urging to go partying and what not. Where i live, snowboarding and snowmobiling are ultimite big time fans here. of corse the hockey. so, what ive been doing has been around the snowmobiling, watching the guys hockey games, going to all night partys, SHOPPING, and just hanging with the friends. Can't forget with the boyfriend also. i think of him as.. my lover, my baby, and my best friend. Okay rambleing on ... i cant do that. Ill jump to the point. WHAT MY POINT IS. here i am first day where im not doing something, sick with the flu, and i have a big bump on my neck that hurts like hell. I dont really know what is it. thats why i WAS saposed to go to the doctors, but personaly, i dont like the doctors. so if it's something sirious, i'll go when I am near the death threat. also, the fact that saturday is mine and coltons six months and yeah of corse he has hockey, especially hockey every day for the end of the break. We used to break to fix things that went wrong before. Short story of us. We started seeing eachother in may... we were officale in july, we spent the whole summer together, unseperable, in love, became my best friend who i tell everything and adore, then... of corse, school comes and we go to different schools, where... we barley see eachother, i know ur thinking oh theres still week nights and week ends, WRONG. you see, im in club volleyball, that means... practices like 5 days a week 3-4 hours long and tournaments on the weekends, and i also travel. Him, hockey... practices and games almost every day of the week. is just doesnt work. We ovbiously still do see eachother on weekends, maybe once a week. so we were a little rocky but still in love, so we used the winter break to get back wat we had, and we did, more then ever before. too strong of love, now when we go back to our regular lives... i dont even know what to do. i'm too attached to him to let this seperation happen again, maybe when his hockey dies down. and hes also in club volleyball, so we are going to calgary soon together... so maybe that will help. I just love him, and i need some help. seems the only thing i CAN do is either stay with him and suffer with barley ever even getting to see his gorgeous face... orr, leaving him until we are old enough to be able to live and see eachother everyday... or atleast more then once a week.

anyone have any suggestions??

pleeasee...

jessicaa♥